Saturday, August 19, 2017

The Eclipse

Photo courtesy of The Houston Chronicle

The sun is 400 times larger than the moon, but on Monday, across a wide swath of our home planet, the moon will obscure the sunlight long enough to bring nocturnal creatures out and about and put the birds to sleep.  The Ancients thought such heavenly marvels were acts of God.  Everything in this universe is an act of God and therefore, has far reaching consequences.

Here on earth, another fiery body is suffering an ongoing obliteration.  For our blustery, hateful president, the end is near.  You don’t stand on the side of tyranny and oppression in this world and not generate some incredibly bad karma.  Donald Trump is being eclipsed by his own ignorance; he is being relegated to the margins of democracy because he is utterly clueless about what America is and how it came to be through the challenges of history.  With his limited vocabulary, mercurial anger, and immoral character, he has confirmed what most of us knew a long time ago:  this guy is unfit to be president.  He is the worst of America, not the best.

But let’s be clear:  the fight is far from finished.  Bannon et al’s firing shows the disintegrating shit show of the Trump presidency, but until he resigns along with Pence, and we can vote the Republicans out of Congress, especially the spineless Paul Ryan and the anti-American Mitch McConnell, we won’t begin to undo the damage.

Also be clear:  this is not about Republicans and Democrats.  This is not about who voted for whom.  It does not matter if you thought Bernie was the answer, or you hated Hillary because she was, well, Hillary.  We can all own this debacle.  We made a desperate choice because we were sick of the status quo.  We were sick of the same old politicians espousing their same old campaign lines to get elected only to disappoint us over and over again.  Both parties need to look at this time of hell, these 211 days of terror that pushed our democracy to the very edge of oblivion, and realize that government is about service to the people.  It is about representing all Americans and doing what is right not for party but for people.  And not just American people, but the people of the earth.  No country exists in a vacuum; if one country fails to do what is right, we all suffer.  This is globalism, Bannon be damned.  Remember the term “global village.”  It is time to start using it again.

So what happens next?  We face some dark times and difficult days.  Things are out of control and we will need months, even years, to set them right again.  Make no mistake:  we have been damaged and there will be a price to pay, now and in the future.  There are deep divisions in this country and in this world, and quite frankly, as we saw in Charlottesville, the Nazis and white supremacists with their violent hatred are not exactly open to a reasonable or rational argument.  Heather Heyer is both a victim and a symbol for the dangers we face when we stand up to violent extremists.  We have also never been a particularly intellectual country, meaning that appeals to reason may not overcome appeals to emotion.  Victims cling to victimhood, and the myth of white supremacy and the belief that immigrants and people of color are a threat to “white pride” and the future of our country will not die easily.  Who are these racists going to blame for their own failures, inadequacies and ineptitude?

However, Trump has to go:  impeach him, charge him, remove him with the 25th amendment.  Pence has been right alongside of him, supporting him, standing with him.  He, too, must go.  Clean house.  The sooner, the better, however, if we have to wait until we can do this electorally in 2018 and 2020, we will have to muddle through.  To all those thinking of running for office in the future, put people first, not party.  Do what is right for country and the world.  Stop the intransigence simply because you think it gives you power to obstruct the process and gridlock the government.  We did not elect you to office to go to Washington and be an obstructionist.  Reach across the aisle; find common ground.  Joining hands is a lot less bloody than raising fists.

I am hoping and praying that the more peaceful protest of this weekend is the sun emerging from the shadow of the moon.  I am hoping the nighttime predators are slinking off to crawl back into the hole from which they came.  And finally, I am hoping that America has come to the conclusion that the things that unite us are greater than the things that divide us, that we are a country of immigrants, that we are the great experiment, because everyone here, with the exception of our indigenous people, is from somewhere else.  It is not too late to re-imagine the American dream and reclaim our history and our future by living righteously in the present.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017


Manuscript page from a recent project

Interesting article in Sunday’s The New York Times Book Review by Sarah Manguso.  She debates whether or not a writer should keep all drafts, notes, outlines for posterity that may or may not ever come, or should they only keep the final draft and throw everything else away.

She says “I keep a few old paper drafts…I used to compose my work on paper, revise on the computer and save the initial drafts.  Now that I compose on the computer, there’s only ever one extant version, and no drafts at all.  My own ‘archive’ fits in three shoe boxes.”

Of course, writers and their heirs have made a good bit of side income by selling off their archives to universities, but first one must become a “Writer” with a capital W.  Susan Sontag’s archive is at UCLA, including three laptop computers.  Emory University has Salman Rushdie’s drafts and other writerly paraphernalia.  William Saroyan’s dead trees are scattered all over California—at the Fresno County Public Library, the Bancroft Library at U.C. Berkeley, and Stanford University, which also owns one of his typewriters.  No telling who got the fingernail clippings—yes, he kept those, too.

Those of us who toil away at blog posts, newspaper articles and magazine pieces might never generate enough interest to have someone approach us to ask about buying our archive.  I certainly was not considering the prospect of selling my drafts, notebooks and other detritus when I cleaned out my storage unit and moved all of my boxes of manuscripts, journals, notes, and outlines under one roof.  My apartment is now ready to explode at the seams, but I am so happy to have everything here.

That being said, I have changed the way I work because there is no longer any room.

For a long time, I have worked in meticulous fashion following this careful methodology:  handwritten notes leading to various handwritten drafts of an outline, then to a first draft followed by printing it out when finished.  Then, I attack the page and rewrite nearly every line multiple times, printing out each successive draft only to attack it again and again until I have the one I want, only it is not the one I want.  It is simply that the deadline is now and I have to send it out into the world.  In the end, I have the final draft on top in a manila folder and each previous draft, in reverse chronological order back down to the notes from which it sprang.  On long pieces or troublesome pieces, the folder is thick; most of the time, I write at least five drafts.  Now, I am left with 23 file boxes just for manuscripts and notes.  I also have one four-drawer filing cabinet and six or seven boxes of research.  My closet is jammed and books, magazines and journals litter my office floor.  I swear I am not a hoarder, but my work space makes it seem as if I am lying.

Lately, I have continued to write handwritten notes and outlines.  I also keep an almost daily journal or notebook also in handwriting.  I think it is important to engage the pen with the page, but it is a painfully slow process.  My hand cannot keep up with my mind.  So after I have made notes and outlines, I write the first draft on the computer.  Only then can I keep up with the flow of ideas in my brain.  I then reread and revise the draft over and over again on the computer, and it might be four to seven passes before I actually print out another draft.  Then I tear it apart again on the computer.

For blog posts, this is working well.  I do not have them saved except for the digital archive on the computer which I back up several times a week onto a flash drive.  For the project I just finished, a book-length thesis, I wrote several drafts of each chapter and had at least one major rewrite of the entire thing that changed it significantly.  Because of that, I have several previous drafts saved in case I want to put something back in that I cut.  Also, due to length, this project merits its own file box.  If my longer projects involve research, they have their own file boxes containing all notes, outlines and drafts as well as articles and clippings.  The books, when I am finished, go back on my shelves.

I tell my students that back when I was an undergraduate, I used to write my papers the night before they were due.  Actually, I might have written them in the wee hours of the morning the day they were due.  And I suffered mightily for my indiscretion.  I turned in crap, to put it bluntly, and my teachers let me know it.

I remember sitting in an English class on Ernest Hemingway one evening—it was a seven to ten class—dreading the coming return of our research papers.  While I was waiting for the professor to arrive, I kept my head down and hoped that no one would notice me in the back of the room.  Two girls who were sitting in front of me were discussing the upcoming edition of the college literary magazines of which one of the girls was an editor.  She was listing off all the well-known literary stars of the senior class who would have pieces in that issue.  “Oh,” she said, “and there’s a short story by some guy named Paul Martin.”  Neither of them knew who I was.  However, I was suddenly, deliriously happy.  I was to be published!  I had not had much success in my writing up until then, and almost immediately I was soaring out the window of the classroom and across the campus.  The sky was the limit. 

Then the professor arrived.

“Paul Martin,” he said, looking around the room, unsure of who belonged to that name in this, the tenth of eighteen weeks of class.  The two girls in front turned around to look at me.  I raised my hand so the professor could see me.  “Could you step out into the hall for a moment,” he said.  He had a paper in his hands.

We stepped out into the hallway and he handed me my paper:  D+.  In the case of a grade like that, is the plus simply an added insult?  “Son,” he said sternly, “you don’t know how to write a paper.”

He was a teacher I admired, and shame colored my face.  I guess he hadn’t gotten the memo:  I was to be published in the school literary magazine!

“I’m really more of a fiction writer,” I mumbled, refusing to make eye contact with him.  In truth, I wasn’t sure yet what kind of writer I wanted to be or even if I was a writer.

“All writing is writing,” he said.  “If you can write a story, you can write essays and research papers.  Hell, every piece of writing is a story of one kind or another.”  He sighed and turned to go back into the room.

Here is what I learned:  one, Ernest Hemingway probably suffers in comparison to Impressionist painters with whom I tried to connect his writing.  He is much more like Edward Hopper, I now know.  All clean lines and angles, harsh light.  Just because Van Gogh painted a cafĂ© doesn’t make him an artistic match for a guy who hung out in cafes in Paris circa early 1900s.  I definitely should have known better.

The most important lesson I learned was that writing is a thought process from the very first tentative notes to more assured analysis to outline to draft to finished paper.  In every step, the writer must take the time necessary to build the essay or story or poem—yes, even poetry needs process.  Revision is key.  Revision is huge.  It is a chance to “re-see” the scope and sequence of the entire piece.  Nothing, nothing ever comes out right the first time, I don’t care if it is brownies or essays.  Even seasoned bakers know that not every recipe works every time, and even something as elementary as altitude can throw the whole thing off.

So I have embraced the process.  I keep writing and revising and writing and revising.  I revel in it.  I worship the process.  And I take great comfort in the fact that every piece published still has things I’d change if there were more time.  In short, the process is never finished; the deadline simply arrives and we must send our children out into the world.

We must teach process.  The only way to do that is for the teacher to collect multiple drafts of a paper at different points in the course.  This means reading and rereading the same paper.  It means stacks and stacks of student work to be worked through and dissected.  But if we leave it to students, they will be waiting to write at three in the morning on the day the damn thing is due, and it will be a chore to read for us in the end.

The great nonfiction writer John McPhee, in his Paris Review interview, speaks about his high school English teacher Olive McKee.  “In the average week, she would have us do three compositions.  We could write anything we wanted to—poetry, fiction, or a story about a real person.  But what it had to have, even if it was a poem, was a diagram of some kind that showed the structure of what we had done.  You had to turn that in with your piece.”

He goes on to say “We’d get up and read our work, and the other kids were absolutely unbridled in their reactions.  They wadded up pieces of paper and threw them at you while you were reading, they booed, they clapped.  We had a lot of fun in that English class—and believe me, if something wasn’t working, you heard about it.”

There it is:  writing as a process.  It is even, sometimes, a public process.  We hear the sound of our words and we gauge the reaction from an audience.  Invaluable.  Olive McKee influenced McPhee’s entire career.  Structure of the piece is his primary focus throughout the drafting process.  He is a master carpenter building an intricate house, and no one builds a house without a blueprint and careful consideration at every stage.  If it is not working, the architect is called in a minute adjustments are made.  That is the only way to build a strong house and a strong essay.

Drafts on paper, on a screen, on a combination of both, revision, re-seeing with fresh eyes, all are imperative.

And maybe those boxes crammed into every corner of my office will be worth something someday, most likely after I am long gone.  But I can live with that.

My file boxes of manuscripts and notebooks under my desk