We’ve all been
there: the tightening of the throat, the
shallow breathing, the twinge of pain around the heart, the dry mouth, the
inability to focus. It is anxiety. We live in anxious times. But when haven’t we lived in anxious times,
and before we get too far into our own neuroses, are there not times in history
when things might have been more precarious, more dangerous, more downright
scary? I am thinking now of the height
of the Second World War when victory was not imminent, or in the late 60s when
one had a reasonably good chance of being drafted, handed a weapon, and told to
go fight in the jungles of Vietnam. What
about the Dust Bowl, the Plague, the Great Flu, the Great Depression? Surely every age is one where anxiety might
be the right and proper response to the circumstances that threaten the very
existence of us.
Scott Stossel, in his
book My Age of Anxiety: Fear, Hope, Dread, and the Search for Peace of Mind (Vintage Books, 2013), gives readers a well-researched, crystalline
picture of what anxiety means in our culture today, and what he has suffered
his entire life. His book is the perfect
marriage of the scientific and the personal.
To be human is to be afflicted with anxiety. Increasingly, according to Stossel’s
research, we are in need of greater medication and treatment to deal with the
surge of adrenaline coursing through our veins each day, or is it that we are
less able than our ancestors at managing our stress levels? Life is life with all of its trials and
tribulations; we cling to the apocryphal Chinese curse: may you live in interesting times. That might make life exciting, but we must be
able to handle those times without being reduced to a quivering pile of
gelatin.
Stossel is an editor
at The Atlantic, and he comes off
here in this book as a competent, intelligent man not given to fits of hysteria
without reason or inciting incident, but when faced with one of those
incidents, he indeed becomes hysterical (a word, interestingly enough coming
from a condition of a “disturbed uterus” in its Greek origins). His is a life-long struggle against near
crippling anxiety, even when his intelligence evaluates the circumstances of
his agitation and finds them lacking the necessity of such a dramatic response.
Yet, he still loses control—of his
bowels, his bladder, his equilibrium. He
does not projectile vomit only because he has a pathological fear of vomiting
known in professional terms as emetophobia.
The book, however, is not just stories of Stossel’s battles, although
that is some of the most interesting material.
There is ample science and psychological insight, but one cannot read
this book without feeling sympathy for Stossel’s predicament. He describes his situation: “I am buffeted by worry: about my health and my family members’
health; about finances; about work; about the rattle in my car and the dripping
in my basement; about the encroachment of old age and the inevitability of death;
about everything and nothing. Sometimes
this worry gets transmuted into low-grade physical discomfort—stomachaches,
headaches, dizziness, pains in my arms and legs—or a general malaise, as though
I have mononucleosis or the flu. At
various times, I have developed anxiety-inducing difficulties breathing,
swallowing, even walking; these difficulties then become obsessions, consuming
all of my thinking.” His troubles may seem
rooted in narcissism, but that does not entirely explain them away.
In an effort to defeat
this mental enemy, Stossel has tried all manner of pharmaceuticals as well as
“self-help workbooks, massage therapy, prayer, acupuncture, yoga, Stoic
philosophy, and audiotapes…ordered off a late-night TV infomercial.” In all the Ativan, Xanax and Klonipin, the
psychotherapy, all kinds of other therapies, something called “eye movement
desensitization and reprocessing, nothing has worked. A stiff drink and a host of other drugs wash
through his system. The anxiety remains
potent and debilitating.
The book is laced with
quotes, many from Sigmund Freud, regarding anxiety in history, science and
culture. There are also copious
footnotes and explanations that function as a sort of parallel text, a Talmudic
commentary on the science of the anxiety experience. He traces human history and anxiety as well
as his own history: his
great-grandfather Chester Hanford was suicidal and suffered from “feelings of
anxiety and tension” as well as “fears as to the future.” He writes of one therapist he encountered, a
Dr. W., who boiled anxiety down to a single sentence: “Anxiety…is apprehension about future
suffering—the fearful anticipation of an unbearable catastrophe one is hopeless
to prevent.” Other animals seem immune
to anxious thoughts, mainly because they cannot get lost in the past, worry
about the future, or contemplate events other than the ones in the
present. They need food, water and
shelter. In the animal kingdom, everyone
but us lives in the present. Dr. W. makes
an important distinction: “while fear is produced by ‘real’ threats from
the world, anxiety is produced from
within ourselves.” In other words, we
seem to make ourselves anxious. If only
we could let go and stop, but Stossel’s argument is that our anxiety is as much
a result of genetics and biology as a product of our over-active
imaginations. Many of us are predisposed
to being anxious, and once rolling down that slippery slope, there is very
little, pharmacologically or therapeutically, that we can do to stop ourselves.
Along the way in the
book, Stossel gives the reader a complete history of drug treatments as well as
a discussion of the genetics of anxiety.
The latter is a fear Stossel has:
he might pass his phobias onto his children, and in fact, that is
already in evidence as his kids begin to exhibit some of the same concerns and
fears. He discusses the different eras
and evaluates how anxiety might be instigated by world events. It turns out that every age has the potential
for anxiety. In fact, it is our response
to those events that causes anxiety.
Times were not necessarily worse in some previous era, nor are things necessarily
bad now. Nuclear war may occur in the
future, but potential does not indicate certainty. It turns out we are the architects of our own
anxious feelings, and genetics play more of a role than world cataclysms. Stossel holds out the hope that by writing a
book about anxiety and his own phobias, he might somehow defeat them and find
some peace. But the jury is still out on
whether or not he is successful.
Could it be that we
are more aware of the dangers out there?
Could it be that anxiety is communicated more effectively in our time
through the 24 hours news cycle, the ever-present eye of the media? We have actual news and then we have the
talking heads to walk us through every potential possibility of
catastrophe. With so much information
out there, zipping back and forth and around the world on our digital devices,
maybe we are anxious because we simply know too much? We suffer from catastrophic information
overload. There is too much coming at us
twenty-four hours a day, seven days a week.
The world may be no
more dangerous than it was five hundred years ago. It may have the seeds of potential cataclysm
in its future. But arguably, whatever
happens, we will know about it sooner than our ancestors did. Bad news travels much faster in the digital
age. For those of us inherently disposed
to feelings of anxiety as Stossel is, medication and psychology might be the
only refuge and even they may be somewhat less than effective. In the end, the tools we have to control the
mind on fire with fear might only be courage and resilience. In the case of Scott Stossel, he has tried
nearly everything else, but the anxiety remains.
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